My hair was falling out. My energy was nearly flatlined. When I rinsed my hair in the shower, it was reminiscent of the post-partum shedding that was a chore in and of itself to clean up. Oh, and also, my jaw was locking up at night due to the prescribed new bite guard I was told to start wearing. I was struggling to keep up with the basic chores of life. It was three days before my expected day one of my cycle and ever since going over the proverbial hill of turning 40 the ebbs and flows of hormones seem to be dragging me through life, arms flailing and all. Was this just par for the course? I recently seemed to have gotten a handle on smoothing the waters with a Chinese herbal formula I had used in the past. It had eliminated midcycle headaches and luteal phase mood swings, but was it calming me to the point of lethargy? So goes life, it is and always will be the ups and downs, the lessons to learn the things to change, and the goals to aspire to. This morning I had an epiphany, I had started a new vitamin, finally shifting from prenatals, after nearly 3 years post-partum, naturally. Hahaha. I was nursing up until 4 months ago, so not completely crazy but…? Anyway, was I missing iron in my new organic vitamin for women over 40? Checked the label, and low and behold, Iron was missing completely from the new vitamin. Moral of the story, as things shift and we adjust there will always be a need for consciously investigating how things are going and what we are missing. While I felt discouraged especially while I watched my husband work circles around me this past weekend, doing laundry, cooking, and cleaning up after meals, It should not go unnoticed that these blips bring gifts too. When we are down it is an opportunity for others to shine and new perspectives to be born. My husband and I absolutely have gotten in ruts after the chaos of parenting littles, and these small lyrical dances of one rising when the other one is falling are what keep the whirlwinds of life sparkling.
